BD Confession

I came home from my WW meeting in a very silly mood. DH was actually awake and it was 10:30am. I normally don't see him until 1pm. I started joking that I was a bad wife for not making him a quiche for breakfast (I make one and he eats it for 6 days) because he had finished the last one yesterday morning. He came over and between fits of giggles and wiggles the cats could hear "don't beat me with the big stick." Good thing they didn't understand because momma likes this particular stick. :)

It's been on my mind to not be so down-to-business in the BD department while TTC so that DH doesn't feel like I'm only doing it to get pregnant. Since I don't have any fertile signs right now, I knew that our romp this morning wasn't going to make or break anything. I added some favorites for DH so he wouldn't consider it "vanilla-sex" and be pleasantly surprised. At the end, we were both a little worn out but there had been no victory explosion.

We took a shower together, and I hadn't seen him that lovey-dovey in a while. He wanted to hold me and be with him. It was kinda cute. Later on before I took him out to lunch, he brought up this question, "Has sex changed for you at all now that we are [TTC]?" I told him I would be honest. During the recent BD, I was actually thinking about how many babies are conceived without the woman orgasming. I didn't really care if I had an orgasm though. I have the mindset to BD for reproduction more than pleasure right now because I am so focused on knowing the different phases of my cycle. It's really important to me. If it is not pleasurable I am going to stop, but my plan of every other day plus 4 days straight when I get a +OPK, is because 1) I want us to "practice" to make sure a key player doesn't get stage fright and 2) to see if we have any unexpected feelings after BD such as "omg, what am I doing? I'm not ready" or anything we weren't expecting to feel. DH was very understanding about my confession. He is actually going to research to see if there's anything online about tricks and tips to do to make sure he does his part during my fertile window. Awe, I love him.

The other thing about BD right now is that I'm on the dry side. We have been lubing me up naturally without saliva, but it will only get us so far. I think I want to go buy some Preseed to help in that department. Or some fertile EWCM can show up and make my life a lot easier!

All in all, I'm really glad DH truly wanted to know what was on my brain about BD relating to TTC. So, when I tell him that it's time for the 4 day BD marathon, he'll have a clue what I'm talking about.